It feels great to be writing to You in this way again. I jotted short notes while I had the cast but it wasn’t the same.
I don’t know where to begin. I promised to meet some of the girls for some coffee since I’m leaving tomorrow so I don’t even have much time. But I did come up with two words to sum up what I’ve felt since Thanksgiving: incredibly loved. Not only by You but by my friends and even by people I didn’t know two months ago. I’ve gone from feeling cast out to feeling so much love that sometimes I find myself smiling for no apparent reason.
I can remember oh… You know how many years… when I considered myself a loner. I had You, I had my assignments, and I was happy. When I met up with friends, I rejoiced in that. But then it was back to working on my own. Then You had me work with Tess and Monica and then Gloria. I know sometimes we had disagreements and hurt feelings but I was even happier. Then that ended. I never really gave much thought to how I was growing closer to the Dyelanders at the very time I felt greater and greater distance from Monica and Tess. Now I believe with all my heart that You planned that. You knew better than I did that I was never meant to be a loner. These past two months have proved it. I won’t ever take my friends for granted. Thank You.